Stagnant

This feeling is awful. Stuck, confused, lost. The feeling of trying to rekindle a passion, trying to re-spark your own fire isn't easy. Who helps you get your goals in order? Who is the one you look to for guidance? Do you know that person well? Do you have access to them? Not all of us do. That is the stagnant feeling. Finding yourself again, its a full time job. Self love, and positive talk, and all the things that go into building yourself up again are SO draining. There will be many people that come and go through this period. Ones who don't get it, those who expect certain behaviors from you when you barely know yourself enough to even hold yourself accountable. You have to take time to heal, to put the pieces together. To use the fire that you know you have, to find it again and expose it. Show this to the world. One person, or groups at a time. Once you show yourself what you are capable of you will be surprised at how many people want to connect with you. It may be hard now. I know you look at yourself and think you will never figure it out. You might be at your lowest point right now, and that is okay. At the end of all the madness you know where your heart is. You may not know why, how or what caused things to go the way they have but you know that one day it will all come together. At that point, you will no longer hope they see your power, you won't wish they didn't leave, you won't feel incomplete. Once the beauty you have shows itself you will be nothing but infatuated with yourself, and hopefully then, the beauty of your life will finally be complete.